Just an update where we are. I started this job three months ago. A guy a knew started his own business. Took off more than even he thought. I came on and he disappeared. i ran his business for two months then he came back for a month. I didn’t really have much to do because he started doing it again. But he had big plans. building an empire. Going into the holidays I figured he would get bored and come january/february he would go to Texas (where they moved the company for tax purposes) and I would be running it again. Instead I come in on Monday morning to a lay off notice. So since then I have applied to six jobs. Talked with a generic recruiter about one and a company recruiter about another. Both jobs are out of the area. Which on a personal note I am ready to move after nine years so that is not terrible. But these crappy jobs don’t want to hire a relocator any more than someone wants to uproot family and home. Because they know they are going to abuse and use them. It is disgusting but I am used to it. So if you count the day of this is day 7. Six applications. 2 contacts but nothing solid.

No updates on email text or call.

I applied for unemployment for the first time. Normally I don’t just because it seems like a hassle and I expect to get a job right away. I did this time because it was so quick and unexpected and the benefits are more generous and frankly I am having a cash crunch. I can get credit but liquid cash is dwindling. I have some stock from my previous job I could cash out but it is doing pretty good right now and I would rather it make money than I have to cash out early. I was putting money into employee stock and left just when they weee going to make another quarterly purchase but they didn’t do it so I had a good chunk of after tax money taken out that is not accounted for. Project two is finding my fucking money

There is a moment in every job that is performance based that is sink or swim. It usually doesn’t take long. The shortest was commission job. After three days of sending me crappy leads and I didn’t convert they basically cut me off and stopped sending them. In my post chaplain history the travel job was best because it felt like it was coming after two years so I just left rather than deal with it. I wanted one job that wasn’t smeared r tainted.

Usually one or two months in. Then it is a game of how long before you get rose out or jump ship.

I don’t know if I can go deep enough with my emotions for you. Might be I am guarded or I don’t have the talent. I don’t believe I am sharing the fear, the joy, the heartbreak adequately.

I was going through all my jobs and talking about stepping away. Why didn’t I just go be a chaplain again? Ugh. Exhausting to relive

Challenge, money, growth ego. Of course my ego 12 years and 13 jobs later is shredded

I applied for the job. At least I did something to try and better my life today. Jesus.

A job matching my resume is open in Phoenix. It is with a company I have applied to an interviewed with multiple times. Frankly I am a little peeved they didn’t hire me four years ago for a job I was infinitely qualified for. Guess try again

How far are you willing to move? Will I travel? These are questions I always have to consider

I am good at getting jobs. It really is a numbers game. You can’t get too caught up in perfect fits. Just throw it to the wind. My anecdotal take is I usually get contacted 1 out of every ten applications. Usually it is a first recruiter or an online test questionnaire. If so sixty applications which on this day an age isn’t too hard. That is six leads. If lucky two look promising so I don’t get too enamored with one.

Started writing and then tried to go back to a job but resume was trashed. I had to start over. Leads for one week and then cut off

Then another’s sales job that fizzled out. Another. Then another. Then executive director. Then laid off