May 5,2025,Monday night,6:59pm,pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. Today was one of those days where every single person was in a terrible mood. Myself included. The day didn’t start bad. I got up, walked and worked out, made it to the office on time and settled in before the morning call. From that moment on it all went downhill. My mood soured and so did the attitude of all the people I encountered. I am not sure what it was but I am dog tired and ready to sleep. The sooner the better. This day needs to end so we can have a fresh start tomorrow.

May4,2025,Sunday afternoon,5:03pm,pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. Slept in until 6:30am this morning. It was raining so I didn’t go for my usual Blue Lantern walk. I walked for an hour on the treadmill and did a light chest workout at the gym instead. After that is was a low key day. Did laundry, took a nap, walked the dog and saw my daughter. On the way home I stopped at the store to pick up some carrots, pickles and chocolate mini-builder bars. I have been in a good, content mood all day. Overall it has been a nice day.

May 3,2025,Saturday evening, 5:45,pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. Completed the quad walk today. Woke up at 2:45am, walked up to blue lantern, did my full walk, then walked back home. At a quarter to seven I went to the gym and walked on the treadmill for an hour and worked out. Then this afternoon, after a trip to target and little Caesars, I took the dog for a walk past the dog park. All in all it felt good. I was more tired from getting up early than from all the walking. I will see how tomorrow goes. I don’t anticipate walking that much but it was fun to do it one time. Now I am watching game seven between the nuggets and clippers and monitoring work issues.

May 2,2025,Friday afternoon,3:46pm,pacific standard time,office in Costa Mesa, California,USA. Finishing up a fairly busy Friday. The office manager left early so the clinical director and I are doing the pre-weekend office things. Things we normally don’t do when we had a business office specialist (who we laid off last week) or the business office manager is here. It is good to learn new skills but the day has been a little stressful. We need to know these things in case we don’t have support staff around again in the future but that is little consolation right now.

May 1,2025,Thursday night, 7:01pm, pacific standard time,apartment complex parking lot,Dana Point, California, USA. Today started with a 8:30am meeting. It was unnecessary and unproductive. Then we had our every two week interdisciplinary team meeting. After that I talked with marketers for an hour. I barely had time to eat before I went to a couple off site meetings and then back to the office. I am so tired and grouchy I can’t think straight. I am going to wash up and go straight to bed.

April 30,2025,Wednesday night,7:09pm,pacific standard time,apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. Today is the nine year anniversary of the last day with my brother. Hard to believe he has been gone that long. Time seems irrelevant now. Experiences flow by, measured not where they fall on the timeline but rather by their emotional heft. The things that hit strongest last longest. April 30, 2016 was such a fun day. Going out to eat, playing games, laughing. Yet it is tinged with sadness looking back realizing it was the end. No one lives forever. If all goes to plan I will have to say goodbye to many friends and family members. Or they will have to say goodbye to me. Such is the fate of life and love.

April 29,2025,Tuesday evening,6:24,pacific standard time,apartment complex parking lot,Dana Point, California, USA. This morning I drove to a Aliso Viejo to take my daughter to school. When I arrived her mom said she wasn’t feeling well and decided to stay home. They meant I had unexpected free time. I took the dog for a walk, did my morning call, grabbed coffee from the Starbucks off Ridge Route then meandered into Costa Mesa. I didn’t arrive at work until a quarter after nine. It felt good. Like playing a little hooky. Unfortunately the day was unfathomably slow after that. Weird energy. The past and future held no wild flights of fancy and work was painfully boring. I actually zeroed out my work email inbox. That is crazy. When my last job ended I had almost 20,000 unread emails.

April 28,2025, Monday night, 6:46pm,pacific standard time,apartment complex parking lot, Dana Point, California, USA. The concert was fun last night. My daughter did a great job. She has been hypercritical of her performance. That is unfortunate. She should look back and be proud of what she accomplished. She sacrificed two nights a week for lessons and rehearsals. She made a commitment to something and stuck with it. And finally, she worked through her nervousness to deliver a memorable performance. Talking with her reminded me of my high school band days. Playing live is fun but also nerve wracking. She had to build up strong coping skills for a situation like that. In the end it will help her immensely that she took the chance and put herself out there.

April 27,2025,Sunday afternoon,3:44pm,pacific standard time, apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. Sundays are amazing days I hate to see end. The weekend in full swing, the mood is causal, and everyone is happy. Yet the clock is ticking and the start of a new week looms large. There is nothing to do but enjoy the day and prepare for what comes next. Today I woke up at 3am and went for a walk. Then I worked out and took my daughter to get lunch at Canes. After that I took another walk with the dog. Now I am in Dana Point waiting for tonight. My daughter has her band performance. She is nervous but I know she will do well. time to enjoy the rest of this day and live life to its fullest potential.

April 26,2025,Saturday afternoon,4:45pm,pacific standard time,apartment in Dana Point, California, USA. A work call woke me up out of a deep sleep at 3:27am this morning. Rather than go back to bed I took a walk and made some coffee. As hard as I tried I couldn’t stay awake. I went back to sleep and stayed there until 8:30am. I went to the gym, came home, ate breakfast/lunch, and did laundry. I drove my daughter to pick up her boyfriend in Ladera Ranch and dropped them off in Aliso Viejo but I haven’t done much else all day. I am waking up from a long nap and thinking about going to sleep early tonight. This is possibly the residual of a late night on Thursday. If that is the case I better rest up. Tomorrow is the performance and it will be a long one. Their set list is 16 songs long and scheduled to to start at 7:50pm.