3:51pm, apartment, Chandler, Arizona, Wednesday afternoon, February 02, 2022. The cough and stuffy nose are still present but this morning I went to the office nonetheless. That probably was a mistake. Even though I felt better everyone was nervous about getting sick. I don’t blame them, no one wants to be around someone with active symptoms. An urgent care down the street from my apartment had an appointment available at 3:20pm so I headed back to Chandler early. The clinician hypothesized the first test result might have been a false negative, so she took another swab and prescribed medication before sending me home. The results will be available in a couple days. I will work from home until then.
Be in good health
4:44pm, apartment, Chandler, Arizona, Tuesday afternoon, February 1, 2022. Stayed home one more day. Going into the office was a possibility but there was a staff meeting, not the time to go in and cough everywhere. Another day of rest has been beneficial. I am feeling better. My daughter called a little while ago, she had a good day at school. Hearing her voice when she is happy is therapeutic. Now the goal is to be in good health to travel this weekend. Going two weeks without seeing my daughter would be sad.
Working in California
4:45pm, apartment, Chandler, Arizona, Monday afternoon, January 31, 2022. Day four of being sick; mostly coughing and exhaustion. Went to work early, finished payroll, then took my computer home to do meetings here. At noon I had a call with the recruiter about Southern California. Might be some good opportunities though not really anything better. I really hate working in California.
Sunday updates
2:34pm, apartment, Chandler, Arizona, Sunday afternoon, January 30, 2022. The feeling of exhaustion is still with me, Not sure how to shake it. Working out wasn’t too bad this morning but then again it didn’t last too long. The walk was beautiful this morning, enhanced by a beautiful sunrise. Later this afternoon I plan to go out, get some fresh air. A recruiter emailed me yesterday (Saturday) about the job in Riverside County. We are going to talk tomorrow, about that job and a regional position she is recruiting for. There are a lot of opportunities are open in Southern California right now.
Still under the weather
4:05pm, apartment, Chandler, Arizona, Saturday afternoon, January 29, 2022. Today has been another lazy day. The cough abated slightly but fatigue is still present. Most of the afternoon and all of the morning was spent in bed preserving energy. Payroll must be completed tomorrow, followed by a busy work week.
Arizona longer
3:56pm, apartment, Chandler, Arizona, Friday afternoon, January 28, 2022. Exhaustion overcame me yesterday and a cough developed in my chest. Consequently, most of today was spent sitting on the couch or lying in bed. Two work calls couldn’t be canceled but that was alright, both calls ended up being positive and affirming. I feel appreciated right now. Maybe I will stay in Arizona a little longer.
Riverside County
5:20pm, apartment, Chandler, Arizona, Thursday evening, January 27, 2022. I applied for a job in riverside county, California this morning. There was no response so there isn’t much chance of getting it but, an application was sent. Still keeping my options open and keeping myself available for good opportunities.
Lease options
4:21pm, office, Phoenix, Arizona, Wednesday afternoon, January 26, 2022. I found out this afternoon it is possible to sign any length lease for the apartment. That reduces my stress. I can’t say I want to stay in Arizona but I am not ready to move. Five months would take me to September and the beginning of high school for my daughter.
Money changes everything
3:28pm, office, Phoenix, Arizona, Tuesday afternoon, January 25, 2022. The regional leadership team got new bosses this past month. It has changed the dynamic of our relationship. No longer are they patient and supportive, but rather nervous and insecure. All they can focus on are numbers; did we get more referrals? Has the census increased? Are we achieving revenue targets? The change was inevitable but still disappointing. I shouldn’t be surprised, money changes everything.
Letting go of the WIL
1:21pm, in a class at the office, Phoenix, Arizona, Monday afternoon, January 24, 2022. The past week was monumental. I never thought I would say this but; I have let go of the WIL. The woman who I loved for over a decade, who I share the most sacred parts of me and the relationship that defined me as a person is over in my mind. Working through the remnants of our relationship consumed me. Now it is complete. I am not sad, I am not hurt, just relieved. I can move forward and so can she.
