8:17am Arizona, office. I have two energies, spiritual and monetary. Both are valid but spiritual is the dominant energy. For the past 12 years I have honored the less dominant energy, the monetary. I wanted to do it, to try something different, but I am tired. it is time to go back to spiritual. I found my hard copy of The Unaffiliated book I wrote nine years ago. I am going to go through it and see what I can do with it.
Author: mikemeyer949
Monday night
6:49pm Monday night. Look forward, keep focused on what is in front, never behind
Consistency
9:02am Dana point, Sunday. Consistency is the key to any relationship. Children, family, spouse, audience. To have a relationship requires consistency. Is it possible to improve consistency?
Halloween fun
11:23am Saturday. We walked in the door at 3am this morning. Last night was epic. First the party started at 6pm. With dinner, heavy traffic, finding a car space and meeting up with other guests we didn’t enter the park until 9pm. By then it was packed with people. Waits for rides topped two and a half hours. At midnight we walked one of the Halloween attractions. After that we were tired. It was a rush to get everyone home before falling asleep. My daughter is still asleep. I woke up to take the dog out and have been watching football.
Friday
8:09am Friday, Dana Point. Today is the day my daughter and I are going to the amusement park for Halloween. She is going with friends, I as a chaperone of sorts. I look forward to it. October is the best month of the year; it has fall weather, Halloween and leads directly into two more months of holidays.
Vacation
6:14am Thursday. Soon after dinner last night I fell asleep on the couch at my wife’s house. It was a deep, luxurious slumber filled with peacefully confusing images and happy childhood memories. The kind of sleep I rarely achieve during the hustle of life in Arizona. It happened right before evening. There were still some streaks of light in the sky but we had pulled the blinds and turned on a lamp or two. Once the house was settled my daughter began watching a Halloween movie. I don’t remember the plot but it had something to do with a secret society of teenagers battling an evil carnival. Shortly after it started I became extremely tired. The sounds of a full house, the smell of chicken soup emanating from the kitchen mingled in my brain and put me at ease. My eyelids grew heavy and I curled up on the side of the couch. Before long I was snoring softly. My daughter was surprised. She implored me to wake up, stressing it was barely eight o’clock. But I couldn’t be roused. The release of stress starting vacation and the sense of being home had emptied me out. I stayed there on the couch all night. Sleeping my peaceful sleep, dreaming my quiet dreams until the dog whined to be let out ten hours later.
Palm desert
9:58am palm desert. Taking some time off from work. At palm desert on a Wednesday. Excited to see my daughter and pick her up from school.
Writing in distress
9:07am Tuesday. I don’t write when I feel happy or energetic. I write to work through sadness and disappointment. To slow down and write when I have high energy is not very productive.
Rhythm
9:57am Monday, at work l. The week has a rhythm. Sunday at 2pm energy drops low and contours to go down throughout the evening. Monday morning is still low. Then there is a slight perk up as the day begins and evening comes. I survived the first day. But that energy is short lived. Tuesday comes like a second Monday. Wednesday feels heavy but picks up after lunch. By Wednesday evening I can see the finish line. Thursday is filled with anticipation. Friday is wonderful. Saturday is a time of enjoyment and Sunday morning is peaceful. Then it all starts again. I look to read the most on Sunday evening. I want commiseration.
Moment
7:38am Sunday. I checked the mail before heading home from my walk. A new credit card had arrived. I planned on using it and canceling one with an annual fee. No reason to foolishly spend money I don’t have.
There is an app that tracks the distance I walk. It is applied to a programmed route. The route is the pyramids of Giza. I am about 60% finished. I will do something longer next month.
A moment in time is all I, you, anyone has. We don’t live forever, we don’t solve life, we don’t collect experiences. We simply live the circumstances presented. I choose to be in the moment now. Invariably things will change and I will adjust when they do. I will live like this until I exist no more.