1:21am Tuesday. Moment of clarity. The first part of my career was helping people achieve inner peace. My personal goal was inner peace. The last twelve years have been spent trying to achieve results. Specific results in the outside world.
Nouwen quote: leadership
“Nobody can offer leadership to anyone unless he makes his presence known- that is, unless he steps forward out of the anonymity and apathy of his milieu and makes the possibility of fellowship visible.” Nouwen, The Wounded Healer, pg 65
Work /Life balance
5:17am Monday. I am truly happy. I have balance in my life. I enjoy my free time. I work hard on days I work. I disengage and relax when I am not at work. I look forward to my future. I appreciate all I have. When I moved to Arizona everything was about work. I focused on my job. Now I can do well at work and enjoy life. I have found who I am as a worker. A parent. A husband. A son.
Figure out Sunday
4:32pm I have figured out Sunday. Which is huge. The secret is not to think about work at all. To not think ahead even a second. To just be in the moment. I have a future I look forward to. I am here. Now. I am happy.
Success puzzle
2:02pm at a new rest stop, just past the Arizona state line. Sunday Father’s Day. This is the latest I have had a first post in a long time. Success is like a puzzle. Since 2009 I have been trying. I keep doing the same thing and getting the same results. I have traded out the puzzle- sales, operations, entrepreneurship. But I stack the pieces the same. I try hard. I give a good effort. But I don’t ignite. Take off. Find security. Growth. Change language: I approach opportunities in innovative ways. I find success. I grow. I expand. I flow.
Palm desert
9:31am made it to palm desert. Enjoying the drive. Memories of being a sales leader for skilled nursing. I realize I don’t say much about that. The memories are not on par with being the chaplain but it is the second most valued work experience. I traveled around California, Nevada, Utah, Arizona. Also went to Ohio, Michigan, Washington, Colorado for that job. Palm desert was one of my buildings. I stayed here often. Feels comfortable.
Saturday outside Blythe
8:13am driving to see my daughter and wife. Celebrating Father’s Day weekend. I am always confident. Always happy. Proud. Strong. I love being me. I am always confident from inner assurance
First time
1:43am this is my first time truly leading a hospice operation. I have been around hospice for over 20 years. I have been a director before. I am know what it takes to be successful. What good care looks like. but this is the first time I am in control. When I was the chaplain or in sales I didn’t control clinical services. The first time I was a director I wasn’t engaged. The second time I didn’t have time to get settled. I am in control. I expect excellence from people who represent me. I do not give up.
Shift
1:29am I use positive language. Shift focus. True voice. Side note: staying in true voice means not talking in future tense “I need to do…” or “I have to change…” true voice also means not getting stuck in observations. “I always…” or “when ________ happens I ______.” There is a rough patch at work. Frustration with my teams performance. I am falling into familiar feelings. I am saying familiar things. And I am doing exactly what I said not too! (Future change and observation) I am shifting now…I am the captain. I am the coach. I hold people accountable. I improve performance. I raise expectations. I am a leader. I win.
In control
7:47pm I am on top of my emotions. I am in control. I am powerful.
